Open Heart

Even in the darkest moments of our life,
God's light shines to guide our path.

Last Night, the full moon was engulfed in Darkness. Its light could not light the earth or my being. As Darkness consumed my heart, in a matter of seconds, the light within me dimmed with sadness and many unfamiliar feelings. One comes to think that happiness will never be found in the cloudy, depth of this cold world. Just for a while—just a while—that’s what we all think. It has been instilled in our minds that no such divine light (“Love” and “Happiness”) can shine upon us, in us forever.

Why not? Merely because the world has been consumed by selfishness, should we as well?

Of course not, but we are all gullible. All of us trying to figure out who we are, our purpose for being, trying to find answer, trying to find Love, and happiness; that is what we seek always. The reason why we’ve become selfish, we seek and seek constantly for our own interest. Nothing is ever being good enough to satisfy us. Why never good enough?

In reality, we don’t seek with an open heart; we never let it sink inside of us, our soul, and our whole entire being. Hence, why happiness had become temporary and why love has been difficult to find. Yes, I know God loves me, and I dearly and truly love him, yet I haven’t completely sought him with my heart. We all fear loneliness, love and being truly happy forever no matter what happens. There is no fear in love. I’ve sought love, happiness and the escape of loneliness, but my not-completely-open heart did not let my discovery of perfect love sink in and embed itself within my being. So the true no-matter-what-happens happiness couldn’t stay. Love can’t be found yet; loneliness still has some crumbs leftover deep inside.

Yes, we seek with half-open heart. Yes, we seek with fear. Then how are we supposed to find anything. Let your heart be completely open and be rid of all fear, seeking justly, honestly, and fearless. Only then can we truly discover love filling the voids inside our soul and whole essence. No wonder God couldn’t change me to a better person, or bring my true love next to me; no wonder I couldn’t feel any sense of love and acceptance because I sought only with fear, and I didn’t seek completely for him; I didn’t seek openly; I didn’t seek to discover myself, with not fear, but love: God’s love.

I sought now, and I have found. God’s love pulls me forward to continue living because no matter what happens happiness is here; love is here and still more love is to be found; my whole essence is filled with love, hope, and Faith. Seek and thou shall find. Amen.