Dream

For years she had waited for him to tell her those passionate feelings he had for her. She could still recall the first time their lips met under the cold rain. How the moon was shining brightly lighting her lover's face. There were a thousand sparkles in the sky but somehow

God's tears kept pouring upon them in their moment of unity, in their moment of blissful love. Although she had wanted and waited for this truth to be revealed, her heart had already healed; she was in love, not with him but with the man she had always waited to come and free her, to take away her pain. He had confessed that he had always loved her but his fear stalled him, and he knew he had lost the best thing he ever had.

Although she was already numb to him, she still somehow quivered with fear that if they’d let the past back she'd lose her future. "I don't love you anymore. I suffered greatly when you broke my heart but God blessed me with the man I love now. Just because you realize what you lost doesn't mean you can gain it back. Sometimes you lose it for good and that's why I told you to not be afraid to love." As she told him this, memories flooded her mind. She felt like she was there once again with him filled with the joy of finding love, holding hands, and feeling the flapping butterflies within her. "I know," he says and she snapped out of that false reality she lived. "Everyday I thought about you. I heard your voice. I knew I loved you but I chose not to be with you. I chose to push you away but I didn't see I pushed my whole life away."

As he expressed this, she remembered how she used to pray to God to reveal if he ever truly loved her. The pain of living part of her life a lie would now cease. She couldn't comprehend that attachment she once had to him, and she stood there in silence, praying in her mind—"Lord free me from temptation and reveal the meaning of this situation. Why did I go through this?"

"I love you," he said, it echoed through her mind bring back all the time he had said it when they were young. Could he be lying again? He would lie all the time, why not again? He can be playing with her once more. The image she had of him remained the same throughout all these years. The pain he caused erased the love she had for him. "I'm sorry but my feelings for you died with the past, and I no longer wish to be with you. I am in love with a man who truly loves me, and he is not afraid; he is honest and a man of God.

Everything she ever wanted and more, everything I had been waiting for all her life. “Everything you are not, he is. He is worthy of me and my love, and you are wrong for me. I am done with you. I am not the one for you. I have never been."

A sense of relieve overcame her, but she felt pity for towards him. Why? She can't explain it, but her past;

God gave and brought a new her with confidence, peace, and love. She knew that he wasn't the one for her although she had loved and cared for him deeply. The tears quickly dried up, the pain slowly ceased but as she opened my eyes to see his face she realize it was all a dream.

In our deepest slumber, we sore through our wants, needs, and desire, living in our dreams where everything is possible.--Claudette